Breathe and Recenter

Good morning! 

Today I am going to take time to breathe & recenter.

It has been a full week.

Hubby had his bladder cancer removed Thursday, 

and all looks well.

My kiddo has a job interview with the city Monday.

I'm so happy for him.  If it is a good fit, 

then I'm confident he will get it.

I called my Dad yesterday, he was excited

about my stepmom winning an award for 

her watercolor painting. She won FIRST place !! 

Yay!!!

She's put a lot of time and practice into her art.... and we were both gushing with pride.

I went for a (new) doctors appt. close to my old stomping grounds (during my 20's),

and had an x-ray of my shoulder....(to be continued).

While in the area, I planned to spent the night with some dear old friends.

It felt organic and welcoming, as if I had returned back home to my family.

I was longing for the belonging.

I truly believe God provides for us in the best ways.

This morning as I wrote in my journal, 

I noticed it paired well with yesterdays blog post,

so I thought I'd go ahead and share that too!

Dear Beloved,

Each day is an important part of the journey.

Walk close to Me, I will keep you from stumbling.

Ask for what you want. Be willing to accept that 

life is on your side and wants for you exactly

what you want for yourself.

Open your heart and free it from hatred, anger, resentment and fear,

then ask for what you want.

Do what you need to do to prepare yourself

to have exactly what you want.

I am constantly speaking to you and drawing you 

into My presence. Even now.

Are you listening?

I have great things to show you. I desire to guide, comfort,

and protect you.

I want to express my unfailing love to you.

Don't allow the incessant noises of life 

to drown out My voice.

Listen to Me.

I am always available to you.

Set your heart to seek My presence at every turn.

Be aware of My guiding presence with you moment by moment.

Experience My energy, peace, and fulfillment 

in every step of the way.

Listen to Me closely & obey My every prompting.

Others may be responsible for your problems,

but the solutions are up to you.

Focus on yourself. I have given you many things-

from family & friends, to tools for living.

The painful lessons of a lifetime are not unlearned overnight,

but I am helping you to learn that it is safe to feel,

hope, even to dream.

Follow the signs as shown. 

When the right time comes, it just organically happens.

Act in your own best interests. 

Understand that your choices will not please everyone

around you.

Take responsibility for your life and your choices.

Your past has passed. When you are called to release

what you've held on to for to long, let go.

Surrender as best you can.

Begin again in whichever way you choose.

Prepare yourself for the energy of bright, 

brand new beginnings.

With unfailing love,

YHWH God

"She believed she could, so she did."

"Make peace with the broken pieces."

"She overcame everything that was meant to destroy her."

"She remembered who she was,

and the game changed."

Be well,

xoxo

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*note* words from several random readings,

 copied in order as written in my journal. 

 

Healing Process

I've been studying self-healing for about 30 years now.

I thought if I read enough books, prayed hard enough, and found the right people,

that somehow healing would just automatically happen.

I would wake up one morning, and all the icky bits, feelings, and triggers, would just

magically disappear. *poof*

Little did I know that old wounds get stored in our cellular memory, and they cause

all kinds of disruptions in our bodies, and minds.

We have to do the work. 

It's an inside job.

I just never knew, until I knew.

I've learned so much this year.

 As always, something new popped into my YouTube feed this week.

I pay attention to the little cues, and am willing to check out any new sources.

Typically it's something random that helps me to understand,

 inspires, validates, or helps me to heal just a little more.

Have I mentioned, that I love this stuff?

xoxo

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"One of the most courageous decisions you'll ever make

is to finally let go of what is hurting you heart and soul."

" A strong woman knows she has strength enough for the journey,

but a woman of strength knows it is in the journey where

she will become strong."

"The soul always knows what to do to heal itself.

The challenge is to silence the mind."

"You have to grow from the inside out.

None can teach you, none can make you spiritual.

There is no other teacher but your own soul."

"Healing may not be so much about getting better, as

about letting go of everything that isn't you-

all of the beliefs- and becoming who you are."

Ordinary Day

Yesterday, I would have loved to keep the little one around.  I LOVE ANIMALS!

However my neighbor has chickens, and I LOVE them...& FRESH EGGS too!

For over a week, I've been playing hide and seek with my suet feeder.

I'd fill it, hang it, and the next day or a few days later, I'd search for it.

Sweet little game, but it wouldn't have been so fun if the cutie had tried it with a chicken.

We won't even go there.

Anyway...

 we caught it, took it for a ride, then released it on our favorite spot, (an old home site) at the farm.

 It seemed pretty content. 

I left a little care package of tomatoes and cat food as a housewarming gift.

In hindsight, I wish I'd left a suet block too.

He'll be safer there.

This morning I had an opossum in captivity & released it into it's new home in the country.

Also happy...although he growled as he walked away...

I imagine it was because he didn't receive a parting gift.

 Nothing personal. It was early.

I actually have a tender spot for opossums....

A zillion years ago, my kiddo and I raised baby opossums 

when their mama was killed. 

They were actually quite cuddly and sweet.

Then there was a dog, that just showed up....a happy frenzy of fur.

It appeared to have gotten loose. It was carrying it's own lead in its mouth, like it was taking itself 

for a walk. 

  So I'm reciprocating her affection, and thinking to myself, 'great, I drop off

an opossum, and I'll return home with a dog.

I started to imagine how that would play out.

I could see hubby's face.

Then there was a man that appeared in the distance.

It seemed he was talking to himself, then he looked up and saw me,

and apologized for the happy attack I was under.

"Oh, no! I love dogs !! She's so sweet !"

Apparently she was abandoned a year ago, and he took her in.

He shared his story, and then we parted with...

"Have a beautiful day!"

I began a new module this afternoon, and it was a gorgeous day, 

so I sat out on the porch to study.

This week we are learning about soil, farming, the ecosystem, and how it all 

affects our health.

It is also on our different energies.

I never cease to be excited about this course.

My kiddo worked in town today, and dropped by after work. 

I knew he was coming, so I baked a sugar free almond cake,

that I wanted him to try.

He had a piece, then 2nds, then 3rds.

He said it was AMAZING! 

I gave him extra to take home.

It's so true that the best of days can be found among the

ordinary ones.

xoxo

💝

 

My Day

Today, I'm listening to what my body tells me,

taking some time for myself,

practicing some somatic movement, 

with my sweet Buddy boy...

and doing things that I love.

Love this...

"It's good to know both your specialness and your

utter dispensability.

Then you can let go and embrace it all.

You can play your roll in this exquisite, absurd story

with complete abandon.

You can be a melting snowflake, a drifting leaf, 

or a nature spirit dancing in a pond.

And if you touch any heart with what you do

for the brief moments you are here, that is enough."

xoxo

💝

 

Wins

Yesterday, I woke up feeling like a storehouse of bothered things.

We had plans to go the KC for the Chiefs opening game,

 and join in the tailgating festivities with Hubby's grandson and his wife.

Then here comes my stuff!

Try as I might to let it go,

 my mind just started to puke all over the place.

A two hour drive, singing along to Christian hits, a box of tissue,

and some well read journal pages....

and the storehouse had cleared.

Looking back, I wouldn't have hand picked

yesterday to deal with bothersome things.

No please. And thank you.

In hindsight, it turned out to be the most perfect day for it.

Journal letter #3 from yesterday:

My dear child,

I am your friend. Walk hand and hand with me through your day.

Together we will face what it brings;

pleasures, hardships, adventures, & disappointments.

Nothing is wasted when it is shared with me.

I can bring beauty our of the ashes of lost dreams,

peace out of adversity.

I have equipped you to stay conscious of Me while walking 

along dusty earthbound paths.

For better or worse, life will not always go as planned,

and I probably won't lead you in the way you think I will.

What can you learn from this? 

What in this challenge has made you stronger,

more loving or more empathetic?

Seek me in the midst of your circumstances.

Keep looking till you can discern the Light of My Presence 

shining upon your difficulties, reflecting sparkles of joy back to you.

Abandon yourself and all the details of your life

to your faith, and your greater-yet-to-be will burst forth.

You don't have to wait for external circumstances to shift

before a transforming experience overtakes your life.

There will be a tearing down of the strongholds of negativity.

I will move through you in ways you can't even imagine.

Be vigilant in your faith. It is your shield and fortress.

Remember who and what you really are.

Your faith in your true identity creates space for you to

no longer live in the past or future.

You will be available, awake and alive in the now.

Your feelings aren't shortcomings.

Give yourself permission to feel whatever you feel,

and the feelings will pass.

Do whatever is necessary to take care of yourself.

Take appropriate action to resolve the matter. 

Then let go. Let the process happen.

And move on with your life.

You are free to live, to allow yourself to totally

experiment and experience life.

Shift your attention to your blessings and strengths,

and to the aspects of your life that are working.

Stop thinking about your setbacks and disappointments.

There is no way around this. You will experience a deficit of

joy when you pay attention to the things that dissatisfy you.

Turn the spotlight of your concentration to your future hopes and dreams,

 for the grand mysterious future that I have in store for you.

Whatever you ignore, or cease thinking about, begins to fade away.

Fix your mind on your blessings.

Starve worry, fear, and doubt by no longer nourishing them

with your attention.

Enjoy the day. Do the right things for yourself.

Today is your sole concern, make it as good as you can.

My Love interrupts the past and opens the future to new probabilities. 

No matter how old you are, in the present, all things are possible.

You are free to find the path that helps you best.

Know where the land mines are. 

Your path of growth won't be quite like anyone else's.

It will be unique.

It will be you-ier.

It won't always be easy. 

Surrender, and remember that someone far wiser & more competent

is running the show. 

It's My job.

Love you always,

YHWH God

xoxo

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*note* from several different sources written in order as recorded in my journal.

 

Pet Vibes

Yesterday I rode along with hubby to do farm chores.

 It was an absolutely gorgeous morning for it, 

and I haven't spent time with my cow-kids for a while. (both in pic,)

Buddy (back) is a sloppy kisser, and I came home slimed with love.

I have been reading The Wisdom of David R. Hawkins:

Classic Teachings on Spiritual Truth and Enlightenment.

I picked it up before bed last night, and he was explaining

the energy we transmit. how we vibe, so to speak.

Studies show that a majority of the worlds population vibes at below 200.

"Those who are 200 and up-are keeping the world from going down the tubes."

Cows, horses, cats and dogs are over 200.

Dogs wagging their tail are around 500.

If it weren't for them....Oh my gosh...

ew....

I shudder to think.

xoxo

💝

" People ask me, 'How can I become more Spiritual?'

Well, I say, "First, just become a decent human being.

Try that. Be considerate, decent. Be responsible. If you say

you are going to close the door when you leave, please do so."

~Dr. David R. Hawkins~

 

Letter #2

Ups and downs. Mostly Ups.

No course this week.

No processed sugar for over 7weeks now.

Hit 900 days of learning a new language.

Past 100 days of rising early to walk.

Experimenting with sugar free deserts, and it has been rewarding.

The kiddo sold his house.

Mostly all good....dealing with the rest.

Morning letter from God #2.

Dear child,

When you depend on Me continually, your whole perspective changes.

You begin each day with joyful expectation, watching

to see what I do.

Look for the good in every experience and, as best you can,

find the lesson in each setback.

Celebrate wins.

Surround yourself with positive people & environments.

When you have faith, you develop trust. When you trust, 

faith is not required. you already know.

Put your faith in a heart's desire, then trust that your faith

will bring it to pass.

You will experience the things you put your trust &

faith in.

As you listen & love in dependence on Me,

My Spirit will flow through you, refreshing your soul.

I want you to trust in Me fully-

with absolute faith that I provide the absolute best for you

regardless of what happens.

When you seek Me, I reveal Myself to you.

I want to work through you.

Spend time with Me in prayer.

Follow your intuition. It is your guide.

Trust that I will open the way for great abundance.

'Ask, and it shall be given you, seek and ye shall find,

knock , and it shall be opened unto you.' Matt. 7:7

Nothing stands between you and your highest ideals &

every desire of your heart, but doubt and fear. 

When you can wish without worrying, every desire will

be fulfilled.

Your only enemy is fear of lack, fear of failure, fear

of sickness, fear of loss, and a feeling of insecurity on

some plane.

Substitute faith for fear.

Break all the old bad records in your subconscious mind,

the records of your life you do  not wish to keep,

and make new beautiful ones.

Make perfect records through my Spirit within you,

of health, wealth, love, and perfect self-expression.

Experience the cleansing, renewing, & invigorating power

that is always available to you.

Let Me create your day!

Invite Me to reveal what I want to see happen in your

life today. Ask Me about the next important step I want you to take.

Joyfully launch each day with Me.

I create anew in every moment the chance for you to shine.

Because of Me you can.

Love always,

YHWH 

God

xoxo

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*note* out of 8 individual books, read in no particular order,

written as recorded in my journal.

 

Everything Beautiful

"God grant me the serenity to accept

the things I cannot change.

The courage to change the things,

I can.

And the wisdom to know the difference."

There are more changes happening, more growth, of course,

always more obstacles....but all is well.

I'm pretty sure this will be my last monthly journal dump.

My journal has morphed into a new form,

most every page has become like a letter from God.

I've been given the nudge to share some of the messages 

so in going with the flow of things.....

Quotes & notes from my August journal:

" Accept what you can impact,

and let go of what you cannot change."

"Sustain relationships that take you outside

of your comfort zone.

They will support growth"

"Experience is not what happens to you,

it is what you do with what happens to you."

"You learn by force. You learn by choice. 

You learn by being forced to make a choice."

" Open your mind to all possibilities.

Let go of what you've been trained to believe.

If you believe something is possible or impossible,

you'll be right.

What you believe determines your outcome."

"Have a mind open to everything but attached to nothing.

Let it all come and go as it will."

"Transformation happens by the renewing of our minds.

The key to transformation is changing

what and how we think."

"You can change your life by changing what's inside 

if you're willing to go that extra mile."

Energy and time are precious, and limited.

Use them wisely.

Life is simpler than I make it!

God's will is good.

"When you find yourself in the darkness of an unfamiliar

experience, do not grope, grab, or swat off 

imaginary demons. Rather than shield yourself,

surrender.

Take a deep breath & open your heart."

"You will find the answers in the silence."

Its almost as important to know what is not serious

as to know what is.

Consider quiet acceptance in times of stress.

Refuse to feel sorry for yourself & do your absolute best possible.

"Contentment is like a big ol' hug at the end of the day

you inhale deeply,

and everything else disappears around you."

When you are feeling out of sorts in anyway,

go to  nature & find your peace.

Listen to the birds, the insects, the rustling leaves,

the wind.

These are the sounds of healing.

"Your old methods do more harm than good.

What once allowed you to function in a nearly

impossible situation is now an obstacle to 

further growth.

An asset has become a deficit."

"As long as you are stuck internally,

your life will be stuck externally;

the only way to go wide in life is

if you are willing to go deep."

Surround yourself with people that make you laugh.

"Getting in touch with heavy, loaded feelings

from the past & allowing yourself to 

express them-

is far more useful than trying to reason yourself

out of them."

It is an illusion that depleting myself will help someone else.

Making a life for ourselves,

regardless of what others are doing or not doing,

must be a top priority."

The more I feel my smallness & powerlessness,

the more I grow in spirituality.

"I yam what I yam, and

that's all I yam."

~Popeye~

"If you are wondering who your people are,

they are the ones who make your heart feel seen

& your nervous system feel calm."

You'll be OK even if they don't like you.

You like you.

And that is the greatest gift you'll ever

bestow on yourself.

Respond with  kindness to those who offend you.

You'd rather be kind than right.

Don't waste time regretting the way things are

or wishing you could go back to yesterday.

Work for what you are rather

than what your against.

"Give up the pleasure of condemning people."

Give yourself permission to allow yourself to be

totally involved with just good thoughts.

"It is necessary to the happiness of man 

that he be mentally faithful to himself."

The  more you see yourself as what you'd

like to become, the more inspired you are.

Process your feelings, 

but you don't have to indulge them.

What you think about expands.

Be more mindful and careful what you think about.

"The real truth might be that we are far more valuable & loveable

than other people have led us to believe."

"Choosing to set boundaries & create wellness for 

ourselves is our primary responsibility."

"Let go of expectation: whatever happens is happening

as it should.  Challenge your own beliefs.

Do the thing that feels difficult.

The only way you'll arrive at the magic is if

you're willing to travel a few

challenging roads to get there."

xoxo

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