Very random thoughts...

....and a letter from the past.

dinner, a selfie,...and if you look close...a cat on my head....💝

I feel the winds of change. 

Sticking close to God and

trusting in Him for direction.

I have this wonky energy of standing at a starting gate,

 waiting for the gun to fire...

while attempting to wait patiently...

and wait...

and wait.

I watched a movie with Hayley Mills and Diane Keaton 

the other night. Love them both.

Hayley Mills? 

I developed a bit of a girl crush...

she is 80 and so freaking adorable!!!

Both are a light.

Our chicken neighbors have been popping over the fence

for a visit from time to time.

The other night, one went missing... so we hunted in the dark.

 Later I received a photo text of

 a big speckled chicken sitting up in the tree.

Ellie May looks pregnant

the thought of little kids hopping around next door

makes me happy.

Can't wait!

My neighbor is baking Brandon and Molly's

wedding cake. 

She brought over a practice cake for us to try.

I may have teared up a bit.

Brandon made an express trip into the area 

I met him for dinner, and to bring him

some cake.

He told me he started writing his vows...

 I told him I was going to be a blubbering mess.

He said his friend N.. will be OK unless he sees someone

cry. 

Warning to N....don't look my way.

I'm about to mosey into the advanced class in Tai Chi.

My classmate battles with Parkinson's .

He's advancing with me....or I won't go.

Yesterday we were stretching up on our toes like a ballerina,

and I said, "I'm too wobbly today..."

and he said,

"I have a hard time even making my feet work."

and we both laughed

He has a good spirit.

He seems to move more smoothly during practice.

There's something to it.

I've been filling up journals like a madwoman

16 pages....14 pages....stuff is coming up,

ideas, direction, non-essential....quotes,

memories, flashbacks....

a lot. 

waiting....waiting....studying...

practicing...

patience.

I am combing through my journal notes from the last month.

Pilfering... sleuthing...

revisiting highlighted sentences, starred & underlined areas

while highlighting more as I go.

I'm under investigation,

by me.

Putting the pieces together...to start coaching

and taking steps forward as I take in more...

I am in the flow...

yet....still not fully ready to launch.

This morning, I read a letter that formed on the 9th of last month....

it was on a Sunday...

I had just prayed for patience...

wanting to default into DIY and help God out.

Let's go!

And also wanting to wait for His perfect timing...

no easy task.

I know I am still processing....

& there is a lot going on.

I seriously trust that He has a better plan than mine anyway...

so with that said...

I'll place my trust there.

.....

'Dare to begin to be happy. You will go forward in the way before you,

you will soon receive the promise,

I will give you your heart's desire.

I understand perfectly things about you which you have

yet to discover. Open your heart fully to Me.

You will experience My boundless Love.

I want your life to bear fruit.

No one can go it alone Spiritually.

I will lead you to a place I know you will thrive. Be obedient to wherever 

My Spirit leads you.

Stop worrying, fretting, and being anxious.

I will help you through this.

Get real with your mess-ups, and don't act like you have it all together.

I am more concerned about you faking it than if you blow it.

I want you to know I see you, and there is nothing you can do to

make Me love you more!

Don't go into hiding. Keep it real.

Let me enter into your failures with you &

watch what happens.

Do something with what you believe & fight back against boredom of a 

faith without activity.

Faith without works is as useless as a pen without ink.

I don't need your help.

I want your heart, and you will understand more about Me

the more you engage in your faith.

You will be alright, for you are still learning what it means to be strong.

Keep going.

Find a place to rest.

Then rise up and begin again.

Have a blast today.

Search for little signs, take a walk, but

find your adventure in Me and express your faith

in love and in action.

Talk to Me all the time. 

This single habit will improve every area of your life.

Hear Me say,

"That's my girl!"'

~Jesus~

(compilation of notes....)

be well...

xoxo

💞

"There is a lesson to be learned from reading biographies,

it is that no one enters this life with a plan."

"To know all the facts about anyone is to be considerably

more informed on the subject than they are."

"You cannot change tomorrow by changing yesterday,

that is what today is for."

The fastest way...

...to build self-worth is to be impressed

with yourself.

To do things that make you respect

 you.

So that when you go to bed at night

you can say

"I'm proud of my day."

When you let yourself down

it whittles away at your self-worth.

Don't let yourself down.

You're not trying to get away from "suck"

your trying to move towards "awesome."

notes....

went to the clinic to hang on the bar 

in the corral

hubby's been timing me

I go once a day

& hang twice

today I hit a minute

my first time

(to be cont...)

the discouraging scribbles of your life 

can become a masterpiece

(...with God)

refuse to dwell on past ugly mistakes

or unfair criticism

put these things behind you

and keep your eye on what is up ahead

indulging in negative thinking and hurtful

thoughts affect your relationships

and may have a depressive effect on you

contentment comes from inner growth

unproductive habits will

hinder your growth

celebrate your attempts to

give love

and spread hope

your story is still being written

don't let failures define you anymore

don't let who you were decide 

who you'll be

what still haunts you?

things change

life changes

you change

your life cannot remain static

in order to get where God wants you to be

you can't stay where you are

be observant for subtle changes and signs

carve a new path

if the road you're on

gets cut short

the hardest thing to do 

is trust and believe in God

when in transition

let go of your desire to change and control

what you cannot know

change

or control

constantly calibrate yourself and let 

go of who you were

to embrace who you're becoming

determine to be open to where

you are being led

and be willing to take responsibility

take care of yourself

life is hard but you don't have to make it 

more difficult by neglecting yourself

there is no glory in suffering

just suffering

the solution rests with you

be well...

xoxo

💞

"You cannot change tomorrow by changing

yesterday,

that is what today is for."

"There are times you just have to look in the mirror

and say,

'I will if you will.' "

"Confession: I hate small talk. It gives me anxiety.

But if you want to get honest and vulnerable and weird

for a little bit I am totally down for it."

 

Self-assured

So, I've been giving myself time to simmer,

as I'm discovering and developing

 a path forward that works for me.

Baking class... cinnamon rolls....💛

I mentioned in the past of an opportunity
(for growth).
It was a job working with a sweet kiddo with Autism.
I met the family...their pets, and even their friends.
We took to each other instantly. It was a perfect fit.
However, after much thought and prayer...
I decided to turn it down.
We were all a bit bummed.
(Which led to my funktastic mood in my previous post.)

 Keeping in mind, 
I had plans (as I mentioned as well) for this month,
and it would have taken me way off course.
As life would have it,
God had His own big plans, and my
 course changed direction anyway.
I'm still heading in the same direction,
 but there's been a course correction.
 A "recalculating" moment.
More clarity.
I'm letting it unfold naturally.

In the meantime....
I'm loving:
 This gentle February weather!!
Volunteering at the therapy barn, new horses joining our team,
funny kids, and our new volunteer leader.
Learning high kicks now with my Tai Chi buddies, and
channeling our inner Ninja's.
A chat with the  cashier who told me she thought she had a micro-sleep (& still shaking it off)
while checking out someone's groceries before me....and then 
us adding more to the story, until we doubled over laughing.
Laughter.
Baking class last night. Cinnamon rolls and rolls filled with chocolate ganache...
a group of grown adult ladies with chocolate smeared hands, licking chocolate covered
spoons. Hoots mixed with laughter. 
Joy.
Tea rooms, and a Parakeet named "Sunshine".

And all is well.

be well...

xoxo

💖

"Living intentionally creates a soulful reason

behind our actions.

When we take the time to zero in on what we want 

and why we want it, 

we can narrow in on our purpose.

Instead of allowing our thoughts to run wild,

focusing shapes our reality.

Wherever our focus goes,

growth can take place.

Creating an intention with focus

will reap rewards. In fact, it may not happen 

exactly as you would envision, but it will happen as it should."

"Sometimes a person has to go back,

really back-

and have a sense of understanding of all that's

gone to make them-

before they can go forward."

"We can own our own power to choose

the path that is right for us."

"Luxury, to me, is not about buying things;

It's about living in a way where you 

appreciate things."

~Oscar de la Renta~

Synchronicity of Things...

Going back to a call made to schedule an appointment,

 which somehow led to

chatting about the year of the snake, 

and the shedding of old skin.

Followed by subtle signs & a strong nudge.

 The green light.

Cueing me that it's time to begin.

Resistance.

I set & circle a date, and decide to go with the flow.

My head is ready, but my heart whispers "slow".

My neighbor visits & hands me

a package, unexpectedly sitting at my door.

A note from home & a thoughtful gift.

 Some tears, a call, and much, much more...

the timing was perfect, 

I felt the tug at my core.

Fear, doubt and uncertainty come near,

the circled date also, a birthday of someone dear.

Listening to a talk-show while visiting Mom... they mention..."the year of the horse".

I look to see the date, and it's the one I have in a circle, of course.

Journaling...

If you want something, take action today.

Every small step leads to change.

Anything that makes you anxious is a growth 

opportunity. Embrace the challenge eager

to gain the blessings hidden in the difficulties.

Start in the present moment-

accepting things exactly as they are.

Give yourself.

You see many things that miss the mark,

and it's uncomfortable.

Don't run away.

Be clear in your mind of exactly what you

want to happen. Leave the how to God,

even if it's unrealistic.

"Be faithful in your affirmation that God

has not deserted you, but calls you in the middle of all 

the unexplained absurdities of life.

Be deeply aware of this."

~Henri Nouwen~

"Explore. Dream. Discover."

~Mark Twain~

be well...

xoxo

💝

'Sometimes there's no one to turn to.

Sometimes you're all alone.

And those times?

You have to keep the faith.

Remember that even if you can't see them or 

feel them, your people are out there

waiting for you.  Even after you're gone.'

~Grey's Anatomy~

"The master has failed more time

 than the apprentice has even attempted."

~Proverb~

"There's a reason Scripture tells us,

"Do not worry about tomorrow."

Matthew 6:34

Fear accelerates aging.

Stress disrupts hormones.

Worry weakens digestion.

We're called to trust.

It heals us spiritually and physically"

~Dr. Josh Axe~

"There are so many reasons to be happy.

Waking up to see a new day is one of them."

 

January 21, 2026

"Hold your course and don't let go..."

This morning I have the desire to go somewhere.

I'm feeling a pull for Costa Rica...

then I pop back into reality,

and it looks more like shopping for tires,

and touring Walmart.

Who knows...? could be fun.

Journaling...

Don't worry about having it all figured out in advance;

you'll connect the dots as you go.

'Reading in a spiritual way is reading with a 

desire to let God come closer to us.

Not to master knowledge, to let God's 

Spirit master us.'

Keep your eyes open, make a plan, then get busy executing it.

"A do-nothing attitude usually

results in a nothing-done state."

Choose worthwhile ambitions.

Don't busy yourself with things that merely occupy your time.

Are you catching up on everyone else's life,

or exploring and examining yours?

Get clear about what you believe will last in your life.

What helps others & inspires you?

Be energized and grateful, and throw more of your life 

into it.

be well...

xoxo

💖

"...We too have an inner compass that guides us through

life. If we take the time to listen for the subtle cues

of our intuition, we can learn to trust our instincts

at a deeper level. 

Take a moment to be still and welcome 

the wisdom of your intuition."

"God doesn't usually shout over the noise.

He speaks in the quiet of the present moment.

We've  normalized busyness as success.

Always moving. Always producing.

Always on.

Slowing down is an act of trust in a 

culture that glorifies speed.

Choose presence today."

~Dr. Josh Axe~

'Be the woman who doesn't wait anymore.

She booked the flight, took the risks,

hired the coach, and lived a life

God placed in her heart.'

💝

Mind Over Medicine

Revisiting some speakers and topics from

The Institute of Integrative Nutrition course.

Lissa Rankin was one of my favorites.

(you can find more videos on YouTube)

Learning to calm my nervous system has been a huge

game changer for me.

We can't heal (or lower our blood sugar) if we are stressed.

be well...

xoxo

💝

Notes on Consciousness

Maneuvering through the morning slowly,

enjoying small sips of coffee, wrapped in a quilt outside.

It's overcast, and cool.

 Still.

 Peaceful.

The porch decorated in chalk dust and graffiti from last

nights "lets-go-draw-on-the-porch" moment.

Bundling into sweatpants, hoodies and grabbing quilts to wrap in.

Twinkle lights and moonlight.

Goofiness and laughter.

Simple joys with my grand-girl.

I'm re-visiting some books I read before my coaching course.

Before I went on my own journey of being coached.

I had a twinge of "before and after" ,

and a prayerful celebration of the 

things I've left behind.

Sharing this out of the book:

Letting Go

The Pathway of Surrender

by David R. Hawkins M.D. Ph.D.

3years ago...a special friend/teacher/guide shared this book with me. 

Sometimes we just need the right information to

tug at our truth, and help us to see more clearly.

We don't know, until we know.

" Apathy and depression are prices we pay for having settled for 

and bought into our smallness.

It's what we get for having played the victim & allowed ourselves to be programmed.

It's the price we pay for having bought into negativity.

It's what results from resisting the part of ourselves that is loving,

courageous, and great.

It results from allowing ourselves to be invalidated by ourselves or others;

it is the consequence of holding ourselves in a negative context.

In reality, it is only a definition of ourselves that we have unwittingly

allowed to happen. 

The way out is to become more conscious."

"What does it mean to become 'more conscious' ?

To begin with, becoming more conscious means to 

start looking for the truth for ourselves, instead of blindly

allowing ourselves to be programmed,

whether from without or by an inner voice within the mind,

which seeks to diminish and invalidate,

focusing on all that is weak and helpless.

To get out of it, we have to accept the responsibility that

we have bought into the negativity and have been willing to believe it.

The way out of this, then, is to start questioning everything."

"As we become more aware, we begin to realize that we have a choice.

We can stop giving authority to all the mind's thoughts,

begin to question them, and find out if there is really any truth in them

for ourselves."

(great book if this interests you)

Journal notes:

"You are not alone; there is a great big world out there

waiting to champion you and help you live your very best life."

'The root cause of hesitancy is due to how you feel about yourself.

Remember who you are.

You have all you need to achieve every goal before you.

You don't have to fear.

You can do this.

Stop wrestling with your anxieties and get the job done.

Begin living your life with joy, and assurance of God's 

unlimited resources.'

You are free to live your honest story in the way it was meant to be written.

"We are defined by the narrative we write for ourselves every day."

Talk to yourself with love.

Your main work is to clear out debris and clutter,

making room for your Spirit.

Release and receive.

Go through your days distracted by everything going on around you,

or live fully engaged, and look for the beauty in life.

"You get what you repeat."

...finally she decided to stop suppressing her true nature.

be well...

xoxo

💗

"If you call forth what is in you,

it will save you.

If you do not call forth what is in you,

it will destroy you."

~Gospel of Saint Thomas~

"I never wanted to be the best.

I just wanted to be the best damn me."

~Lily Tomlin~

 

Happiness Habits

I remember a time when playing outside with my cousins,

then Dad taking us to my Uncle's gas station 

to buy a bottle of Coca-Cola from the machine

 was all it took to be happy.

It takes a little more intention these days..,

but it's still the little things that make me happiest.

 Like nature, movement, and savoring the simple pleasures.

Only now, it's walking through the grass barefoot,

practicing Tai Chi steps under the stars,

and relaxing with a healthy mug of hot-chocolate 

(sugar/dairy free)

 at the end of the day.

Journal notes:

"Problems can be the pathways to Spiritual growth

that good times can never provide."

~Charles Stanley~

Recognizing the extent of your neediness is one of your strengths.

"You don't need someone threatened by your happiness.

The right people will be happy for your joy."

'The happier, more content, the more fulfilled you genuinely feel,

the more you have to give. Everyone.'

'Our love is the light that shines in the darkness.

Just be love and it'll light up everything.'

'At some point you have to free the inner hostage.

No one else can storm the gates.

You alone can finally break the barricades & just free...you.'

'Jesus calls us friend.

He looks to us through the lens of love.

He accepts us the way we are,

but also helps us grow into all we can be.'

'Embrace the wonder of being alive. 

Look at things freshly.

Choose joy over discontent.

Transform your negative assets, 

and build on your positive.

Focus on what's right about you.

Seek your higher self.

Discover your unique talents.

Like yourself as you are.

Make today yours!'

be well...

xoxo

💖

"The less people know, the more stubbornly

they know it."

~OSHO~

"The goal isn't buying more materialistic stuff.

It's a nervous system that's regulated.

It's hormones that are balanced.

It's a gut that is healthy.

It's energy that's vibrant.

It's a spirit that's at peace.

It's friends that are safe and supportive.

It's a life well lived.

Health is the real wealth."

~Dr. Will Cole~

4-7-8 Breathing

Coaching. Revisiting. Favorites. Breathwork. Habits.

Tools. Healthy. Basics. Simple. Passion. Natural. Grateful.

Healing. Routine. Practice. Steps. Transformation. Time.

Presence. Awareness. Focus. Energized. Motivation. Zest.

Source. Nudge. Contentment. Niche. Excitement. Happiness. Holistic. 

In keeping with being kinder to myself....

I'm adding some new morning, and evening routines.

Expanding my practices.

I'm ready to shift gears.

 I'm currently revisiting my IIN coaching modules, 

and zeroing in on some of the ones I am passionate about.

*Humming Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer...

down for whatever.

Journal notes:

Don't worry about what's around the next bend. 

Be watchful & thankful. 

Pray.

Be wise.

Make the most of every opportunity.

Confront fear by taking a positive step in faith.

A leisurely pace accomplishes more

than hurried striving.

Do not lose your identity as a unique person.

You are who you are.

Retain your freedom and individuality at every turn.

Keep your heart and your eyes open wide enough

to appreciate the synchronicities & magic around you.

"I will reveal the issues that are preventing you from 

accepting My word - the areas where

you refuse to trust Me. 

You may already know, 

because they are constantly causing you trouble.

Acknowledge the rocky places & commit yourself

to applying My truths to your life.

It will be difficult, but it's worthwhile-

this is where your true healing begins."

#God

Imagine your good.

Take responsibility for yourself.

Be well...

xoxo

💖

"An unhealed person can be offended

by just about anything.

A dysregulated nervous system can be triggered

by just about anything.

An unhealthy gut can be flared by just about anything.

What or who triggers you is a pointer

to where there is more healing to do."

Dr. Will Cole

Uniqueness

This week, I've been channeling my energy into areas that 

genuinely interest me.

Embracing my own individuality, and resisting the urge

to conform to social expectations.

Taking more time to really experience what matters, and best I can...,

let go of the rest.

Misplaced priorities rob us of peace, energy and joy,

causing us more stress.

Don't trade taking the time to understanding yourself,

for trying to impress someone else.

"Stress and anxiety create blocks in our lives.

Flow creates peace and harmony.

When we struggle with what's happening,

we move out of flow.

Everything is happening exactly as it should.

Trust that your efforts and prayers are being recognized.

Do your best and create change.

Life will unfold as it does.

We are responsible for how we react 

and the choices we make as it does.

Trust and faith can eliminate anxiety and stress.

We are given a wonderful life to live and experience."

"Keep faith simple because it is.

But don't try to make it easy-

because it's not."

"Remember being true self is your nature."

Be well...

xoxo

💖

"My body is on a budget.

I can't afford stress,

negativity, jealousy or foods

that don't love me back."

~Dr. Will Cole~

 

Boundaries

Savor, observe, expand, ground, balance, longing, truth, teacher,

friend, authenticity, spirit, belonging, change, emotions, healing, space, grace,

acceptance, action, presence, awareness, faith, peace, internal, priority, seen,

responsibility, respect, influence, values, roots.

My Dad walking ahead of me, & my heart echoing my GPS..."Recalculating".

Emotional send-offs, hugs, and aches of separation.

Feelings of longing to stay, slightly distracted

by activity, travel, people watching, seatmates, turbulence and a

readiness to get home.

Some shifting taking place. Uncertainty, voids, and struggle,

replaced with faith, love, and stillness.

Thoughts on moving forward, responsibility, direction, 

and assessment, and then onto thoughts about boundaries.

Did you know that 80 % of the population has never learned about boundaries?

I for one, never got the memo.

I learned manners, how to be respectful, and to how to survive and defend,

 but if there was much said about boundaries....I missed it.

Boundaries came to my attention as a tool a few years ago.

 During a trip back home, my kiddo purchased a book

as a gift for his sister-friend.

He told me I might like it too, and to check it out.

I didn't want to thumb through the pages,

however I read the covers, and ordered it when I returned home.

With that little backstory, 

I decided to delve into the-book-of-which-I-speak again.

3rd. time. 

As with anything...it takes practice and refreshing

myself on the information.

I'm passing on some bits as I go.

If life feels wonky, Boundaries are a good place to start.

It's a good tool that can help in making choices 

through change. 

And a guide to assist in finding direction.

For starters, I will share a page from "The Boundary Boss."

(the book of which I speak) on rights.

"Boundary Boss Bill Of Rights"

"❤ You have the right to say no (or yes) to others without feeling guilty.

❤ You have the right to make mistakes, to course correct, or change your mind.

❤ You have the right to negotiate for your preferences, desires and needs.

❤ You have the right to express and honor all of your feelings, if you so choose.

❤ You have the right to voice your own opinion even if others disagree.

❤ You have the right to be treated with respect, consideration, and care.

❤ You have the right to determine who has the privilege of being in your life.

❤ You have the right to communicate your boundaries, limits, and deal-breakers.

❤ You have the right to prioritize your self-care without feeling selfish.

❤ You have the right to talk true, be seen, and live free."

~The Boundary Boss~

The relationship we have with ourself is the most important.

We are responsible for our own happiness.

Be well...

xoxo

💕

"Love yourself enough to set boundaries.

Your time and energy are precious.

You get to choose how you use it.

You teach people how to treat you

by deciding what you will and won't accept."

" Love yourself first and everything else falls into line.

You really have to love yourself to get anything

done in this world."

~Lucille Ball~

 

Healing

I have learned that discomfort is just a signal

that I am capable of more.

That meditation and journaling

are amazing healing tools.

And...

that I am willing to do whatever it takes to win on the inside.

Journal notes...

It is vital that you remain hopeful,

no matter what is going on in your life.

Peace is an inside job.

You do not need to present a different version

of yourself to earn love, acceptance, &

connection, and have deeper relationships.

Live the simplest version of who God made you to be.

Be authentic.

They will love who you really are.

The only adequate source of help is God.

'God helps you change and grow,

 and become spiritually mature & whole

in spirit, mind, and body.'

"Do not let your hearts be troubled

& do not be afraid."

John 14:27

Don't fight battles when you don't have a real way to fight them.

Keep your focus on things that are important to you.

You have the power to make today feel the way you want.

Find the tone you want to set for the day.

Breathe.

"Broom the gloom, & make room

for the blossoms to in your heart to bloom."

be well...

xoxo

💖

"I wish people knew that when we start healing,

we can also feel some sadness.

We realize how much we've missed out on.

How we were let down by others

and how we let down ourselves.

How much the past version of us actually deserved.

Healing involves healthy grieving;

cathartic crying.

The Japanese call it Rui Katsu

"Tear seeking".

A biological baptism,

born again anew."

~Dr. Will Cole~