Conviction

I've been doing some deep reflection,

digging through things, working hard to

stay focused on the direction I want to go in life.

Blame came up.

A lack of responsibility to myself,

and blaming others, circumstances, or my lack of this or that, 

 for the unhappiness I've struggled with.

I suppose I could have run around blaming all I want,

forever.

I really wasn't aware that I did this...

until I was.

I had my little "Aha moment" when I was back home

with my family.

It was not a proud moment for me...

but I'm happy for the reveal. 

I just want to STOP.

So...I'm digging in to do the work.

This is going to be a hard habit to break.

I am so grateful for the conviction though...

 and the direction that comes from that.

Blame just made me powerless.

I am definitely motivated for a change!

I've been so stuck...and that was making me nuts.

Really.

I thank God for the clarity!

Recently I heard a pastor say:

" You can't settle into your blessing,

because you've been so settled into a negative experience."

Yep! Pretty much sums it up for me.

I've paid a special homage to my negative thoughts.

I'm learning.

It's time to shift gears.

Time to stop taking the great things for granted.

...some of the great things lately:

the perfect words when your open to receive them

mornings on the lake 

girl time, kayaks, coffee and lemon bars

a good laugh

walking  downtown

my kiddo

quaint bakeries

splurging for desert

sunflowers in my backyard 

granddaughters

huddled on a blanket in the yard & fireworks

kid art on the fridge

family

oldies on the radio

reading a good novel with my hubby

7 year Anniversary

the 1883 series

reading on the porch

not missing a day out of 144 of learning Swedish

cooler mornings

insight

a small group of support

xoxo

💖

" Trust that each new day holds untold possibilities

and remember:

In every moment, you have the profound ability

to make choices that will completely

change your habits and your reality,

either right away or over time."