Quotes and Questions.

Today, I am celebrating the month of May with a 

sense of accomplishment.

I have been eliminating clutter from my home,

and from my life all month...

and it feels fantastic!

*cheers!*

This morning some quotes and questions seemed to 

resonate perfectly with my thoughts and feelings.

You know... the ones you read, and they all seem to fit?

Well my blend came together forming a perfect mixture that

 seemed to affirm, inspire and satisfy my soul.

Journal notes:

"The world cannot be discovered by a journey of miles....

only by a spiritual journey...

by which we arrive at the ground at our feet, 

and learn to be home."

"It may demand courage and self-discipline,

but by freely acknowledging who we have been,

we can make positive changes about who we are becoming."

"If you want to soar, you must take your eyes off of what 

everyone else is doing and focus on the Father."

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"The eagle is the perfect example. When fish come into view, 

eagles train their sights on their targets with amazing intensity.

Regardless of wind currents or weather,

they sweep in with power and precision--

their mighty talons successfully gathering their prize."

(loved this!)

"Thankfulness provides some of the most important building blocks

for your life. The more of these blocks you use to build

your life, the better your life experience will be."

"We are guided on this journey by a power greater than ourselves,

but the steps we take must be our own."

Questions to ask yourself:

What does happiness mean to me?

How can I add more happiness into my life?

How can I treat myself better?

What small change can I make today to make this happen?

"Small changes can become powerful shifts"

"Happiness can exist only in acceptance."

"Only by facing the darkness can we receive the treasure-

the light and joy of emerging released from

all that has held us back."

side note:

I have been on a quest in search of myself, and healing

for some time now. 

I can look back to a year ago... and see how far I've come...

never mind 2 or 3 years ago. I feel like a different person.

I no longer have the gnawing sense of foreboding that

constantly churned in my gut.

Sometimes the changes scare me. 

Why do I feel so peaceful?

Am I going numb?

What if I really am loosing my mind?

For real?

What do others think of me?

Maybe now there really is something wrong with me?!

 However through the assurance of my group, and some new teachers and 

friends, I have been reminded

that it is all a part of the process of letting go of old habits,

 making better choices, trusting in myself, healing and growth.

It is definitely a classic Co-dependent flare up...and I gladly accept it as that.

I used to think something was wrong with me. 

Now I know I just learned some wrong coping skills right from the start.

I'm relearning now. I am content. I may even venture to say happy!

I am a firm believer that when we open up to guidance and love,

it meets us where we are.

When we reach out for help through prayer, support

groups, and spiritual teachers,

it can be very uncomfortable.  

It takes courage to open up and be vulnerable.

It's all worth it.

Have you heard the saying, "When the student is ready, the teacher

appears?" It's so true. Books...people, nature,

a song... the possibilities are endless.

Awareness helps. Just saying. 

If you're all up in your head about stuff....you miss a lot. 

It blows my mind some days.

Support groups are free, and I would highly recommend it to anyone

struggling with some sort of dysfunction.

I found a great one after visiting a couple of meetings elsewhere.

I knew when I felt a belonging  as soon as I walked in the door.

It has been a source of acceptance, understanding, guidance and love ever since

(going on two years).

I do worry about what others think.

Some relationships have struggled, and some have become stronger.

I trust that it'll all work out for the best.

I did read a good little quote the other day:

" Liking you is not anyone's purpose in life except yours."

It's so true....

xoxo

💖

 

More Mindful

Today, I chose what I can do in the moment instead

of pondering tomorrow.

I will be more aware of the choices I make today.

" None of us are getting out of here alive,

so stop treating yourself as an afterthought.

Eat the delicious food.

Walk in the sunshine. Jump in the ocean.

Say the truth you're carrying in your heart like hidden treasure.

Be silly. Be kind. Be weird.

There's no time for anything else."

xoxo

💗

 

Making Space

 

Today I decided that now is the time to

reduce the stuff that has been accumulating 

in our garage.

The process was both satisfying and exhausting.

" The first step in crafting the life you want

is to get rid of everything you don't"

xoxo

💖

Something Good

Today, when I feel bad about myself or life,

I will do something I love,

something that is good for me, 

and won't hurt anyone else.

"Don't personalize or internalize other people's behavior.

What they do is not a reflection of you.

Their actions represent them and where they are in their growth.

Just observe instead of getting caught up and overreacting emotionally."

xoxo

💗

 

Making Decisions

Today, I make the best decisions for myself,

even when others are not happy with those decisions.

I behave in a way that feels good to me.

" No matter what you do, someone won't be pleased.

Someone will think your choices are wrong.

And someone will tell you what you should do instead.

No matter which path you take, someone will be doing better.

Someone will have more than you.

And someone else's life may look more impressive on paper.

If you're being true to yourself, 

none of that will matter because you'll have something

more satisfying than approval and the illusion of "success":

a life that feels right for you,

based on your own wants,

needs, values, and priorities."

xoxo

💗

 

It's Okay

This morning I was sitting at the table basking in the sunshine

streaming through the open doors,

a book on my lap, and a mug of coffee in my hand.

I looked down to read, and felt something 

brush my face.

Startled at first, I jumped, then became seriously still.

A finch had flown in and landed on the table beside me.

It sat there a sweet magical moment, 

then flew away.

This has been a rough week.

A good friend lost his brother.

A friend back home, lost his mom.

One of my sister-friends has been very sick,

and her cat passed this morning.

Another sister-friend staying for the weekend to restore

from a challenging week of her own.

Hubby has been super busy 

and we need rain on the farm for the cows.

Things are just off... not bad, just life.

The same circumstances two years ago 

  would probably have sent me to a corner bobbing and 

eating my hair!

I've come a long way.

I know everything will be OK.

If your going through a rough patch, 

I heard these words this morning,

and they are a good reminder to be gentle with yourself.

"It's OK is things don't turn out how you expect them to.

It's OK to adjust course and choose another path.

It's OK is you don't have all the answers right now.

It's OK to be a beginner, and be clumsy at something

you've never done before.

It's OK if it all takes time.

It's OK to feel feelings, whatever they may be.

It's OK if you don't feel OK.

It's OK to ask for help.

It's OK to rest, even when there is a lot to do.

It's OK if you need to take a break from growing &

make space to just be."

It's OK to be gentle with yourself, and to take time

to nourish your soul.

xoxo💖

 

Everyday Epiphanies

This morning everything I read, seems to

be about awareness, staying in the now, 

being in the moment, giving life your full attention.

Which reminded me of a moment I had over

a week ago, that still chokes me up when I think about it.

It was a beautiful morning, so I decided to take my 

journaling and coffee out on our front porch.

When it was time for hubby to go to work,

he came out to kiss me bye,

then headed to his truck.

He backs out of the driveway...

backs onto the road, 

(where he disappears for a brief moment behind our bush)

 puts it in drive and off to work he goes.

He always gives me a little wave as he pulls back into sight, and heads forward.

I always anticipate it, and look up from what I'm doing to catch him in the act,

and to give him my own little wave in return.

It's all pretty ritualistic. 

We have had a few no wave days in the last two years.

We won't go there.

However,

 all the mornings that I have sat out there....

I think I can recall only twice-ish that we failed our routine.

The other morning, it hit me like a punch to the gut.

I was overwhelmed with a feeling of appreciation and of great sadness.

 I realized there might come a day I would miss that,

 and how it had become something I just took for granted.

 It hit me so hard....I  ended up gathering my things and moving inside.

I was emotional.

We move through so many of our days unaware of the precious moments.

Then it seems we face an illness

 a trauma, or the death of someone dear, and realize how much

we really do take for granted.

That was a wake up call for me.

I've always been a sucker for the little things in life...

but now?

 I seem to cherish everything a little more than before.

I haven't shared many journal entries lately,

so here are a few nuggets from the last week.

Happy May!

Journal notes:

" Be conscious of the choices you make every day-

each one is a seed you are planting for the future."

"You reap what you sow."

" You cannot find true satisfaction outside of fulfilling

your highest destiny: realization of your oneness with God."

" The Spirit longs to give fully to you."

" The door of receptivity opens from the inside.

Swing it open and expect a blessing that will fill

your heart to overflowing."

" Letting go is like a tree shedding it's leaves in Autumn.

It must let go of them to grow & produce even more beauty in the following 

Spring, Summer."

My leaves: thoughts, things, behaviors, habits, 

relationships, control, attitudes.

" You get to a point where your demons, which are terrifying, 

get smaller and smaller 

& you get bigger and bigger."

" A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds."

~Ralph Waldo Emmerson~

" We are all immersed in the atmosphere of our own thinking.

This decides what shall take place in our lives."

~Ernest Holmes~

" For outside and beyond the smaller self is our greater self"

" You are in your current position out of choice."

" We are only subject to a negative thought or belief if  we

constantly say it applies to us."

" We are free to choose NOT to buy into a negative thought."

God is training us to set our minds on Him more and more,

tuning our distractions through His help.

When your mind is busy, you cannot hear His voice.

" Your needs are key to unlocking your true potential."

" Your inner greatness has much more power 

than the inner negativity."

"Letting go of our resistance to the willingness to have

something positive happen in the relationship is ALL that is necessary."

*the mind projects on the future with expectation that the past will be repeated.

Bitterness is an unhealed area in our own emotional makeup,

and the effort that we put into healing it will bring huge rewards.

I have the power, I just need to plug into the source.

" Wouldn't it be a mess if the Spirit placed your answer in someone else?"

"To grow Spiritually means to take personal responsibility

for your growth & development.

You drop followship for leadership by Spirit."

" You must follow your own unique pattern of unfoldment directed from within."

" I work with you on things you need to change.

I love you as if you were already perfect."

~God~

"Being true to yourself is one of the greatest gifts you can give to those

around you."

"There is no randomness about your life."

" Keep your thoughts focused on the present as much as you can."

"If you ask, I will open your eyes & awaken your heart

so you can see more fully all the present contains."

~God~

" When you bring your full attention to each moment.

A day is a complete lifetime of living and learning."

" Don't ever take yourself so seriously that you forget

how to be light-hearted in this big ol' crazy world."

" Today  a new sun rises for me; everything lives,

everything is animated, everything seems to speak to me

of my passion, everything invites me to cherish it."

xoxo

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