Getting Better

Life does not feel as frazzled and fragmented

as before.

If you commit to your spiritual growth,

something marvelous happens.

A year ago I might not have believed this could be true.

But with each step of the journey, I have become

more open to allowing life to unfold as it will...

and commit to making better choices along the way.

"If you consciously work to bring more gratitude, simplicity, order, harmony

beauty, and joy into your daily life, your world will be transformed whether

you believe in a Higher Power guiding you or not."

"When you are in the midst of the rubbish

 that life sometimes tosses your way,

it feels impossible to gain perspective.

When those moments come, hold tight.

Things will get better.

But first, be willing to work through whatever

you are experiencing.

No running, no distractions, and no negotiation.

Sit still, quiet down, and listen inward.

What is your experience telling you?

What is needed?

What can be learned?

This is the hard part. But you can do it-

and you will.

Eventually, you will end up on the other side

with resilience that you didn't know you had."

Out of my Journal  notes today:

*One step at a time.

*A grateful heart protects from negative thinking.

*When the student is ready, the teacher appears.

*Step out boldly and take possession of your dominion.

*Refuse to see yourself as a Victim of influences around you.

*Don't fight God.

*Relationships are wonderful healing tools.

*Practice awareness, and you'll be less likely to do or say something you'll regret later.

*Relax and enjoy the journey, trusting life open up the way before you as you go.

*Protect your heart from evil influences.

*Meditate

*Be open, with a teachable heart.

*Your gravest danger is worrying about tomorrow.

*When you're feeling bad about yourself or life, do something good

for yourself & make sure it won't hurt anyone else.

*Be more loving, supportive and encouraging to yourself.

*Take the time to resolve inner conflicts so that you can be more

loving to yourself and others.

xoxo

💕

 

Set the Sails

"Sometime in your life you will go on a journey.

It will be the longest journey you have ever taken.

It is the journey to find yourself."

It's been an incredible eye-opening month for me.

I have discovered a lot about myself in the last two years,

 it has been filled with beautiful-cringy-hard-thrilling-moments.

Lately I feel I have gone full circle.

I will continue to trust, surrender, and take one day at a time.

Life is truly is worth savoring each and every moment.

Even the cringy ones.

Currently I am....(not now...but you know...like, this month.)

Reading: (always reading more than one book at a time, but super excited about my new one.)

 Idiot's Guide to Ayurveda

(This is ONE of my full circle moments, as I was interested in Ayurveda when I was younger,

it is what got me interested in going to Massage School.)

Playing: with my cat Polly and my pony tail elastics. I fling them...

she runs to pounce, throws them around, &

 waits for me to come get it. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.

Watching: Call the Midwife (series on Netflix)

Thrive Tutorial on Ayurvedic Practices (series on Gaia)

Mom (on Hulu)

Kilo a Kilo (Hulu)

Listening to: Oldies WZCR out of Hudson NY

(reminds me of home...and Dad)

The 4:8 Principle on Audible (It's one I repeat often)

Peak Mind (Audible)

Most of the time....(when I'm not in the car)

I like to listen to the moments...

 the birds on the feeder (outside my window)

 flicking seeds and chirping,

 the chimes in the breeze,

Polly's silent purr,

the cows munching on hay....(on the farm)

the jet flying overhead,

the sound of my own breath.

Working on: Learning Swedish. It is my 371st. day today

Being more present and focused.

Learning more about Ayurveda from my teacher, friend & spiritual mentor.

(SECOND full circle moment. She was my teacher over 20 years ago in Massage School.

We were reconnected through a mutual friend recently....neither of us aware our paths had already

crossed before...until we met.)

She is working toward her certification in Ayurvedic coaching,

and I am working toward being more balanced and centered.

It's a win, win.

Eating: Too many carbs.  I'm faltering on my eating habits.

Not bad, but wobbly.  

Pasta, bread, and my homemade muffins have been a few of the culprits.

I'm all about treating myself....but lately, it's been a little out of control.

Wanting: More personal connection and laughter.

Needing: Positivity, creativity and fun.

Loving: Where I am right now, and being able to look back and see

that I am in a much better place mentally, and emotionally then I was last year

at this time.

Thinking: I should be getting out of my PJ's and gathering my stuff to

go to the farm with Hubs.

Feeling: Satisfied to do what is in my heart, and to not worry so much about the rest.

Celebrating: all that I have.

Grateful for: pretty much everything today. 

An old friend and I reconnecting through letter writing.

(THIRD full circle moment. We've never met in person, but we met through

a Mom's website when we both were pregnant with our firsts.

She lived in Ireland then. We sent letters for years. 

Then life got busy.

We decided to pick up where we left off.

So I sent her a letter this week.

She lives in the States now.

Not far from my Dad. 💞"

" A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step,

as does the journey of a single step.

If the challenges of life waited for you to be ready for them,

they wouldn't, of course, be called challenges."

xoxo

💖

 

Revisit Passion

 "It's the grit in the oyster before the pearl."

Life has taken me in a circle and 

reconnected with me with a passion that started back when I was in my 30's.

It's been a part of my life since then...

only now, I resume wiser and with more experience.

Health and healing have always been at the center of my life,

and the spark has been ignited in me to take a forward step.

I have been a little wonky this week. 

Off balance.

 But I did have a lower GI and sedation on Tuesday.

So it makes sense.

All is well.

My mind and body just take time to readjust.  

This morning I opened up to a page in one of my books, and it fit with my feels.

It's a good reminder to trust life

and to walk our own path.

"Dear Self,

Free your mind from the dead things

you wanted to do but allowed yourself to believe

you weren't good enough, smart enough, young or old enough to do.

Free your heart from the fear that someone 

can stop you or harm you.

Free your self from self-imposed limitations

of age, color or gender.

Free your body from the harmful things you love

even when you know they are 

absolutely no good for you.

Freedom is key.

You must not let anything or anyone

confine or define you."

" I will instruct you and teach you in the way

you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you." Psalm 32:8 NIV

" I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.

I will advise and watch over you." Psalm 32:8 NLT

xoxo

💗

Satisfying Choices

I can't think of a time that I have not struggled with 

indecision. Maybe it goes hand in hand with 

being directionally challenged.

Maybe I'm missing an important gene or something.

So...last week on a cold and dreary day, hubby called 

to ask if I wanted to go to the farm.

I was all cozied in, and without hesitation I declined,

 only to have a feeling of dread wash over me right after I hung up.

( I want to get out....I want to see the cows....I think it will be good for me.)

I called right back, said "yes", threw on layers of clothing and my

boots, made myself a thermal mug of tea, and a cup of coffee for hubs,

 and was waiting by the door when he pulled in the driveway.

I have gone everyday since.

Helping with gates, climbing fences,

 treats and neck scratches for Blondie,

 feed and daily walks with Buddy.

I. LOVE. IT.

Any way....

I've decided, when it comes to making choices,

I can make one that supports the person I want to become....

or...

not, and feel...

well...

void-y. 

Despite the cold snap we've had lately, going to the farm

never fails to make my heart light and my spirit sing.

It's definitely at the top of my list for right choices!!

" I find that when I act like the person I wish to become,

the person I am tends to grudgingly follow along."

xoxo

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