Unfolding

" Be yourself- not your idea of what you think

somebody else's idea of yourself should be." 

First and foremost...

I want to say:

Thank you Dad.

If it weren't for you...I probably would have quit doing this blog.

With that said...

it's about to get more personal.

Just sayin'. :)

Lately I mentioned taking a break from the internet. 

I realized it was distracting me...keeping me from focusing.

I was feeling unsettled...the feeling I get when I need to make some changes.

The internet was a lure...it was an excuse...it was keeping me side-tracked so I wouldn't have to face myself. 

Because good grief ! Haven't I made enough changes in the last few years ??

One would like to think.

I have been trying to find a word to describe what this "stage"

 is that I am going through right now.

I swished a few words around:

expansion

increasing

stretching

and I don't know about you....but those all sound to me... like I am about to get some

sort of procedure done.

It's not hitting the spot.

Then I came across the word, unfold.

Yes !

un fold: verb

-open or spread out from a folded position.

-reveal or disclose (thoughts or information).

-(of information or a sequence of events) be revealed or disclosed.

Spot on !

My life feels like it is unfolding.

Spreading out from a folded position.

Lately...(with LOVE, being the fuel behind it all)

I have been feeling like I want to open up more...

experience more...

trust more...

learn more...

love more.

 I want to unfold !

I will be using this space to record tid-bits, thoughts, quotes and photos.

So basically things will be the same...only different.

A little more open.

 I was starting to lose interest in keeping up my blog.  

I felt like I was just touching the surface all the time...

staying within my comfort zone.

Other than sharing my pictures...I felt like I was starting to flat-line.

It's not that I don't have anything to say....but I am not a writer.

So I struggled with words....if I had the words,

I struggled with doubt, and vulnerability.

I could just quit. That's easy enough.

But I have done this !

This is where the UNFOLDING began in the first place.

I can't just fold it all up and be done !!

That would be ludicrous.

I am UNFOLDING dang it !

And so it is.

*loving...

mini adventures

awareness

courage...[in small doses]

Dad's words of encouragement

pushing through [mental] obstacles

knowing that someone thinks your OK :)

changing seasons

photography classes

going in a new direction

quotes that say what you feel when you can't find the words

God's Love

my incredible family, husband and friends who really know me, and love me anyway :) 

I love you all so much.

Dad...this may not be what you had in mind, when you encouraged me not to quit...

but thank you.  I hope that you'll always be my #1 fan. 

I love you !! 

XOXO